Skip to main content

Tomorrow is just another today



“Courage doesn’t always roar, sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, I will try again tomorrow”

                                                              Mary Anne Radmacher



Sometimes you surf the internet mindlessly until you get something useful and you can't help but pat yourself on the back for spending so much idle  time .The quote above by Mary Anne Radmacher reminded me of  a very somber poem that I had written and I had  felt very  guilty about writing  because it was too depressing!



Give me another today


I read a page today,

Telling me that today is never like yesterday

Telling me that all I had was today

But my today feels like a repeat..

Nothing changes and all  I have left is this heart beat.



I haven’t won a battle,

I haven’t won a title…

I have nothing but today
I have nothing but today



I want it to change, I don’t want today

I want something new everyday,

But all I really  want is today to go away.



I can’t fight today,

I CAN’T is the word of the day

What I want is another today,

Another day to fight because I can’t take it today!



 It’s a long story but I will cut it short… it was at the end of a semester and projects and assignments were due for marking.For purposes of this story, I have to come clean about something and maybe shame myself because it’s not something that an IT student should be caught saying let alone thinking about.I am not good at programming,and I admit it that personally it takes a lot of courage and effort to do programming.With that said and put aside, I resume with my story.I had a programming project due and honestly my group was so far behind that the only hope left depended on us getting a little “help” in our work.That “help” cost us a whole unit’s retake ,although in my defense, the whole class or half  of it should have suffered the same consequences…but that’s water under the bridge.

And with every tragic story, there is always a happy ending which I can’t help but THANK GOD for.We we were given another chance to redo our project and thanks to my group-mate, I have never seen such marks on any of my programming units, i can only think about those marks with a huge smile on my face.

The day we were told we had to retake the whole programming class which probably meant not proceeding with the next academic year, I was DEVASTATED!!! I had never felt so hopeless about school like I did on that day, I actually teared up in front of the lecturer!!( I probably shouldn’t have said that in public) So as I read the quote above, I know that even in those dark moments when you want to give up, then the only option is to give up today but when tomorrow comes  I can start the fight again  and not give in. Another day to fight because I can’t take it today!














Labels:

Comments

  1. Anonymous13 November 2013 at 20:05

    I'm so sorry this happened to you! I''ve been struggling through the same fears for a certain unit.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Yvette20 November 2013 at 12:34

      c'est la vie! hope the exams go well, all the best mon amie :)

      Delete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

19 years later..

The past three weeks of my life have been a dream come true...not because i have stumbled into a load of cash or become a celebrity overnight. I have done nothing that seems out of the ordinary, but this event has and will forever  change my life.I have  no idea how to put it all in writing cause sometimes it still feels unreal. That dream came when i arrived in the land of a thousand hills,my home country Rwanda! I packed my bags so fast(still in shock).I got  on a bus(still in shock)n i saw my home country..still in shock!! It happened so fast and time has gone so fast..after 19 years of being away from a country i can hardly call home,i finally got to see where i was from,its like knowing a part of yourself that you didn't get a chance to live out. I won't deny that i  missed home,sometimes it felt( and still does) like i was a foreigner in my own home,everyone speaks the same language that am  able to speak but when i try to speak,it sounds so foreign!I...
5 comments
Read more

Boxed in...

" Thinking out of the box, thinking like there's no box "..who cares?????  example of  wise words that I have ignored  a thousand times simply because they are money-making ideas for  inspirational gurus fixed on creating  bestselling  mantras.They give you that "i-can-do-anything" willpower which slowly fades into a  "maybe-i-can't-do-that" motto.  I am not writing this down to discredit these wise adages or worse still, to count the number of times i have ignored these words .But am writing this because i had the most unusual wake-up call,from one of these bestselling jingles "Think outside the box" Let's hit rewind and go back to a few weeks ago...it was back to class and that feeling of "am-not-ready-for-school" was nagging at me.3 months of internship,and a week to rest( which was  recuperation period from tonsils), and now back to school with a project proposal due in a week.Complaining is so easy when you have the ...
Post a Comment
Read more

It don't matter if you're black or white...

" I AM NOT MY HAIR" ...."It DON'T MATTER IF YOU'RE BLACK OR WHITE" these are the words to two songs that have been replaying in my head since last week's The Trend Show with Larry Madowo.Social media was a buzz with Vera's interview and her confident proclamation of her body being her business ( makes you think what she really meant by 'business') In all honesty, am no fan of hers, but the interview and all the comments made online about it, gave me a lot to reflect on which led to an interesting conversation with Rodney Onyango.His take on the matter gave me new perspective and i admit, it kept me from being too judgemental.For more of his ideas, check out his link The Spectator Someone must really hate being black.50million! I could think of 50 million ways to spend that cash other than changing the colour of my skin.Anyway, who am i to judge when it's clear that we have different priorities, needs, wants and skin preference...
Post a Comment
Read more