Thought Therapy

Dear READER, I don't know who you are or where you're from, but these words are for you. It's been 4 years since I let you into my life, and in that time, my life has never been the same. This marks my 100th blog post, and throughout the 4 years of writing down my thoughts, I never really grasped the fact that I was actually writing to you. My blog  began as a  way of rescuing my brain from constant thought overload. Writing was my therapy, and still is. I could write all day and night if I had the chance. I can only hope that one day someone will invent a mind-reading typewriter to save me the trouble of typing all my thoughts. It's astonishing how  much you know about me and how much you still don't know about me.All my crazy thoughts on life, the ups and downs, all encrypted in this blog. You have read me at my worst, and read me at my best. I never tell you too much, just in case you brush me off as clinically insane or emotionally deranged, but I always ope

Staring at a blinking cursor, wondering what to write,  with so many thoughts in my head all jumbled up in this concoction of mixed feelings. It's freezing outside but this head of mine's getting overheated from the question and answer game life keeps throwing at me.  "What next?" the elusive question that only God can answer but somehow deep down I know that I have the answer.After 3 years of writing/blogging  my thoughts, my 99th post is simply the 99th thought that's kept me up since 5 a.m. I have stared at my phone since 5 a.m, scrolling through news feeds and all sorts of articles just to  keep my thoughts at bay. I've found out about Google's new logo ( why did they change it?)  and the  effects of  the Chinese stock market crash ( I feel smart just by  writing that down), news that's shaping the world all in the hope of getting a few hours of peace  as I lose myself in what's happening outside of me. After an  hour of serious news, I switc

Things happen, and that's when life happens. Moments that steal your heart away, Moments that keep your mind awake. When life happens, love happens. Moments that take your breath away, Moments that break your heart again. When love happens, everything happens. The ups and downs, The truths and lies, The do's and don't's A life that's worth living and loving. Each moment, each day... Be grateful, for the ones that stay, Be strong, for the troubles that come your way. Be humble, be patient, it's just another day. When life happens, you live another day. and that's  enough. (LyricalUmy)

How do I write about a man whose loud presence can’t be ignored? How do I begin to describe a man whose life should be written down in volumes of books, a man whose battles and achievements could literally make you wonder why you have never tried out that daredevil in you? A man whose blind faith and roaring spirit will leave you believing that anything is possible, as long as you just do it! I have never written down anything much about my father, mostly because words won’t do him justice and because you need to experience him to actually know who he is. He is tough, he is loud, he is sharp and witty, he never gives up and he is simply my papa. I know I will never get it right when it comes to the adjectives that could describe papa, mostly because he is more than words. He’s the man who’s taught me to live in the moment, because we can’t really trust the future. A man who’s taught me to be witty, because sometimes you have to outdo the book smarts to survive. A man who’s ta

It’s been 16 years of trying to be somebody, trying to go somewhere, of sometimes waking up and paying attention (All you Sister Act Fans will get what am trying to say,if not click this  link ) .But now that it’s all said and done, I know I’ve got more sleepless nights and tireless reading sessions in future. To be honest, all through these 16 years of education, I’ve only learnt one important lesson .Which is, books will FOREVER be in my life and that’s just a reality that I can’t run away from. I will never stop learning, and I will never stop reading. I might have thrown away the crayons and scribbled notes from pre-school, but I will never stop scribbling down crazy ideas and doodles when am bored or excited. I might have forgotten all the crazy and confusing chemical names from high school, but I will never stop reading the labels on my medical prescriptions even when I don’t know what Benzonatate really means (and I use it a lot!) I might forget what Quantum theory is and the

The words you are about to read are in no way related to any romantic movie and bear no resemblance to it. No tissues are needed for this post, although some tears were involved before  I had the idea to this post.  "In pursuit of happiness", the one movie that broke and stole my heart at the same time.An inspiring story that leaves you believing in the impossible;that you can go jump off a cliff without doubting your ability to fly,that you can make mountains move, that you can walk on water or walk through a wall!Speaking on a personal level, I love Will Smith movies (most of them) and there's a 100% chance that he made the movie one of my top ten best. But for now, I won't get into the critiquing mostly because Will was amazing and I have more important thoughts to share which came after rewatching his incredible performance. My notebook, the one item I will always have close by.The irony of it being that it helps keep me on track and organized, yet it's

Trying to find my way back, Like walking through a maze, I keep getting stuck… You reach for me, Like that saving hope, I keep walking to break free…. All I ask for, All I could hope for, Is Your presence… Near me, around me, Keep me walking, walk with me. To feel You near me, To know that You watch over me, Even when I can’t hold onto Your hand, I let go, knowing that You’re still with me… So dear Lord,walk with me… When I can’t see my steps, And every move takes a wrong turn, Walk with me…walk with me… Till the very end, I’ll keep walking. (LyricalUmy)

Mirror mirror on the wall, Who’s the fairest of them all? Mirror mirror on the wall, Who’s the gentlest of them all? Fair lady, warm heart… Gentle man, brave heart… To conquer the world, That’s what your heart was made for… Kings and queens, You rule the world, Souls made of steel, And power that no man can steal… Kings and queens, Mirrors do lie… Look deep within, To see the crown that’s always been there! (LyricalUmy)

When my mind can’t think of what to write, When my words seem so far out of sight, When everything seems to fall apart… Therein lies my inspiration. When frustration reaches its peak, When my heart can’t speak, When everything seams bleak… Therein lies my inspiration. When out of nowhere, I  find the words to write When I  spot the grey, from what's  black and white... When I know that at the end of every dark tunnel there's a  light... Therein lies my inspiration (LyricalUmy)

It’s that time of the year again when I should have so many words to express how I truly feel about being alive. I could go all deep and emotional about it, but this year I choose to keep it simple and, maybe a little emotional. It’s also my first post of 2015 (I had a rough night deciding on what to actually write) It had to be a thriller. So much for my sleepless night! Because it all comes down to these words: There’s a lot going on, yet so little I can share with the whole world, not yet anyway.  I have a lot figured out, and at the same time things are not so clear. The only thing saving me from confusion, is knowing that am the co-captain of my own life. It’s enough to keep me calm believing God  knows best and His will never disappoints, although so hard to accept! I have so much to be grateful for, and the number one spot on my “grateful for…” list will always be my family, my heaven on earth. I can’t picture my 23 years without them, even if I tried! I could write a whole