THE LIFE I NEVER LIVED

The life I never lived

Stories left to tell,sorrows left behind..

To walk in their shoes to get a peace of mind..

To think about it, when I can never feel it.

To think about it, when I never saw it.

Pictures can’t tell half the story,

Left with nothing but an empty memory…

If I could travel back through time,

…could I bear to see it through my eyes?

Would tears fall when I remember those who left before their time?

Would I be able to live my life without hearing those haunting cries?

What would have become of me?

Who would I be left with?

How would I have lived my life?

Where would I be?

The places I never went,

The people I never met,

Memories I would never forget,

Questions left unanswered,

Thankful for the life I have lived,

Thankful for the life I never lived.

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19 years later..

The past three weeks of my life have been a dream come true...not because i have stumbled into a load of cash or become a celebrity overnight. I have done nothing that seems out of the ordinary, but this event has and will forever change my life.I have no idea how to put it all in writing cause sometimes it still feels unreal. That dream came when i arrived in the land of a thousand hills,my home country Rwanda! I packed my bags so fast(still in shock).I got on a bus(still in shock)n i saw my home country..still in shock!! It happened so fast and time has gone so fast..after 19 years of being away from a country i can hardly call home,i finally got to see where i was from,its like knowing a part of yourself that you didn't get a chance to live out. I won't deny that i missed home,sometimes it felt( and still does) like i was a foreigner in my own home,everyone speaks the same language that am able to speak but when i try to speak,it sounds so foreign!I...

Taking back memories .... 19 YEARS LATER PART 4

For the past two and a half months, I have gone through some normal moments and some extraordinary ones too.Writing about my experience back home in Rwanda has been the hardest to capture, from the point of view of some people it may seem like a normal visit ( sometimes that’s what I think too) but other times which seem like precious moments hidden somewhere in my mind, the experience has been exteraordinary!! Finding the right words won’t cut it, yet not finding the right words wouldn’t do justice to some of those precious moments. Going back to Gitarama was probably the climax of my visit, I went back home and by home I mean where I was raised for 2 years…where my parents were born,where it all began!! Driving through that countryside was like walking through a time machine ,the only difference was that I had no idea of what moment in time I had gone back to. It has taken me a week to write this down a...

Don't break my heart...

From the moment i loved you, I was afraid to say these words, But deep down i could feel it,and i knew it... Don't break my heart.. Don't tear me apart... With you am happy, That's how i know am lucky.. Without you,i am without me Don't break my heart... Don't tear me apart... Even though i know you will... This is no love poem,or else i'd have poured my whole heart out in my longest post ever!!!But i know how it looks and sounds,it's simply my love poem to this beauty called life...I heard a song this morning by Gym Class Heroes "Get Your A** Back Home" not the best title to a song(i know) but this line kept haunting me all morning "this type of life didn't come with instructions" By now if you reading this and thinking ,"like duh!!who din't know that??" hold onto that thought for just a bit. This is one of the most obvious facts:The things that life can throws at us,sometimes can...

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