Be afraid ...be very afraid...(AS IF! )

Is it really worth the fight?

To believe even when things don't seem right....

To hold on when you see no end in sight...

I never should have let go...

Choosing fear I choose to lose all that I believe and know....

It might get me going...

But with this fear I end up losing.

Stick to my guns,

And let my faith take a shot....

Didaskaleinophobia...guess what that is!! Someone asked me that and all i could come up with was "it's a phobia" anyone can get that!!It's the whole d.i.d.a.s.k.a.l.e.i.n that got me feeling stupid...anyway,let's skip away from that and come to what i really want to say.Have you ever wondered about fear?It's no secret we all fear something,but the real secret is how many fears there are in the world!!!!!!!!!(the exclamation marks should give a hint as to how many) I think there should be a dictionary of some sort,cause i can't even come close to pronouncing some of those phobias let alone remember them!!!

Fear...it's said to be the most effective form of motivation,but wait till it's magic fades off and all that's left is lack of courage!!Practically everyone at some point in life will choose to do something only in fear of consequences,it gets us going...then we realize that even if it got us moving it's never enough to keep us at it.So i got a new perspective on how to look at fear...fear will be my beginning point and faith will carry me all through to the end and beyond.The future is a mystery and we all fear what might happen,this makes us take decisions but in the end we need faith to believe that however much mysterious the future might be,all it takes is a leap of faith to keep believing even when we fear our failures or we are uncertain of the future itself.On a personal level,no matter how fear will take over me i got one remedy that does the trick:My creator and My God

PS:In case you still wondering,didaskaleinphobia is a fear of school(wish i had that)

Comments

19 years later..

The past three weeks of my life have been a dream come true...not because i have stumbled into a load of cash or become a celebrity overnight. I have done nothing that seems out of the ordinary, but this event has and will forever change my life.I have no idea how to put it all in writing cause sometimes it still feels unreal. That dream came when i arrived in the land of a thousand hills,my home country Rwanda! I packed my bags so fast(still in shock).I got on a bus(still in shock)n i saw my home country..still in shock!! It happened so fast and time has gone so fast..after 19 years of being away from a country i can hardly call home,i finally got to see where i was from,its like knowing a part of yourself that you didn't get a chance to live out. I won't deny that i missed home,sometimes it felt( and still does) like i was a foreigner in my own home,everyone speaks the same language that am able to speak but when i try to speak,it sounds so foreign!I...

Taking back memories .... 19 YEARS LATER PART 4

For the past two and a half months, I have gone through some normal moments and some extraordinary ones too.Writing about my experience back home in Rwanda has been the hardest to capture, from the point of view of some people it may seem like a normal visit ( sometimes that’s what I think too) but other times which seem like precious moments hidden somewhere in my mind, the experience has been exteraordinary!! Finding the right words won’t cut it, yet not finding the right words wouldn’t do justice to some of those precious moments. Going back to Gitarama was probably the climax of my visit, I went back home and by home I mean where I was raised for 2 years…where my parents were born,where it all began!! Driving through that countryside was like walking through a time machine ,the only difference was that I had no idea of what moment in time I had gone back to. It has taken me a week to write this down a...

Don't break my heart...

From the moment i loved you, I was afraid to say these words, But deep down i could feel it,and i knew it... Don't break my heart.. Don't tear me apart... With you am happy, That's how i know am lucky.. Without you,i am without me Don't break my heart... Don't tear me apart... Even though i know you will... This is no love poem,or else i'd have poured my whole heart out in my longest post ever!!!But i know how it looks and sounds,it's simply my love poem to this beauty called life...I heard a song this morning by Gym Class Heroes "Get Your A** Back Home" not the best title to a song(i know) but this line kept haunting me all morning "this type of life didn't come with instructions" By now if you reading this and thinking ,"like duh!!who din't know that??" hold onto that thought for just a bit. This is one of the most obvious facts:The things that life can throws at us,sometimes can...

Thought Therapy

Search This Blog