Be afraid ...be very afraid...(AS IF! )

Is it really worth the fight?

To believe even when things don't seem right....

To hold on when you see no end in sight...

I never should have let go...

Choosing fear I choose to lose all that I believe and know....

It might get me going...

But with this fear I end up losing.

Stick to my guns,

And let my faith take a shot....

Didaskaleinophobia...guess what that is!! Someone asked me that and all i could come up with was "it's a phobia" anyone can get that!!It's the whole d.i.d.a.s.k.a.l.e.i.n that got me feeling stupid...anyway,let's skip away from that and come to what i really want to say.Have you ever wondered about fear?It's no secret we all fear something,but the real secret is how many fears there are in the world!!!!!!!!!(the exclamation marks should give a hint as to how many) I think there should be a dictionary of some sort,cause i can't even come close to pronouncing some of those phobias let alone remember them!!!

Fear...it's said to be the most effective form of motivation,but wait till it's magic fades off and all that's left is lack of courage!!Practically everyone at some point in life will choose to do something only in fear of consequences,it gets us going...then we realize that even if it got us moving it's never enough to keep us at it.So i got a new perspective on how to look at fear...fear will be my beginning point and faith will carry me all through to the end and beyond.The future is a mystery and we all fear what might happen,this makes us take decisions but in the end we need faith to believe that however much mysterious the future might be,all it takes is a leap of faith to keep believing even when we fear our failures or we are uncertain of the future itself.On a personal level,no matter how fear will take over me i got one remedy that does the trick:My creator and My God

PS:In case you still wondering,didaskaleinphobia is a fear of school(wish i had that)

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19 years later..

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